I was driving with a migraine that I had had for the past two days and I couldn’t keep my eyes open when I had the awful thought that I was dying, that being on the road stuck behind someone going 15 mph in a 25 zone was actually my brain’s last dying gasp, and that it was a sure sign that for all of my past transgressions against God and the planet I was to be punished for eternity going ten below the speed limit. I’ve been caught behind people going below the speed limit all week. It’s been a bad pain-related-to-chronic-illness week, and a bad pain-related-to-being-human week all around (it’s Wednesday!), which is a problem because being both in chronic widespread pain and being a human are issues I don’t want.
I feel like I’ve been slacking. Here’s what I’m going to do to make up for it:
Or as close to done as I can see it, and I can finally stop stressing about something I never needed to have stressed over in the first place. Year three.
I haven’t gone on a walk in a while.
- My back pain is back with a vengeance (like, limited mobility vengeance).
- Crying at all is the worst emotional display and I don’t even feel good after I’ve done it, just totally depleted.
I was initially going to start today by making a post expressing my frustration with a lot of customers that I see; on the one hand, we have a lot of really great customers, most of whom do love books and as a consequence are at least a little more empathetic towards people (otherwise, what is the point of doing anything if not to become a better person?), but on the other, there are a lot of not particularly nice people I might have to deal with on an average day–more so when cashiering (this is retail, after all).